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I’ve come to realization that I’m always going to be the only one from all my friends who doesn’t have a boyfriend or isn’t dating anyone. Story of my life. 

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Late Night Thoughts

• Warped Tour is in 3 days. So excited yet so worried because “Time Of The Month” may be rolling around. For the last three years, I’ve always had this problem. 
• Even though I packed in advance, I need to repack for I always have a problem with “overpacking”
• Finally catched up up with Dexter & Once Upon A Time. So glad I finished but now I just need something new to watch.
• All I’ve been doing is sleeping most of the time. I need to stop being lazy & running again. I need to find something new to do. A new hobby?
• I wanna start writing poems again but with no inspiration, my writers block has really got to me. 
• Currently rediscovering my hip-hop and r&b roots. The beats, rhymes and lyrics. I really miss this type of music. 
• After my last day of school, having all this free time, I’m really starting to learn about myself. Right now I think I need to work on being who I really am. I feel like I have become selfish and forgetting who I really who I was. Then again, it’s so hard because I know it’s hard for me to trust and “care” for people when I tried, I always ended up being shut out and forgotten about. 

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The last time I saw you it was all such a rush. I just hope the next time I see you, I don’t feel all high off stupid. See you soon.

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Today,

I just realized I have exactly one more week until my finals are finally over. 

One more Presentation, two more extra credit Assignments and three more Final tests then thats it. After four years, that will be my last, final (hopefully) day attending Cypress. 

In one week and three days I finally graduate from community college with an AA in Communication Studies & Liberal Arts. Sure it’s not a Bachelors Degree and I didn’t get High Honors or anything but after four years, I finally did it. 

Even though I won’t have any family coming, once I receive them, I hope they are proud of me. Being the youngest and the only girl out of four kids, I’ll be the first one to actually attempt and graduate from college. 

These last four years have felt the longest (even longer than high school) Struggling to pass, actually study, and even retaking a few classes just to get the grade.

My original idea transferring after two years didn’t go as planned but in a way, I’m kind of glad it didn’t. Attending a community college made me learn a lot and allowed me to grow into the person I am today. 

After these four long years, I finally get to transfer. I really was skeptical to where to attend but I have finally decided on what “Big Kid School” I wanted to attend. It wasn’t exactly my “first choice” but I’m in hopes of starting a new chapter in my life and getting my Bachelor’s in no time. 

Until then, I gotta lock myself in a box until this whole week is over. I probably need all the “lucks, prayers, 11:11 wishes,” for me to go through this. This will be the longest week of my life. 

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I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and learning over this last week. 

I’ve learned that sometimes not everything is not what it seems. If I don’t try, it doesn’t get me anywhere and if I do try, I end up left with the dust. I never win anything. 

I guess I just have to suck it up, get over things and move on to the next. 

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With the stress of my last semester, being attracted to some guy that is too busy, and not having the company of my Dad being around sucks. 

I feel pretty pathetic since it’s like I’m a senior in high school over again. 

The weird thing is, I know what is going on  but I guess I go through those things where I am just too stubborn to even listen. 

I know I shouldn’t complain and I know there are more people that struggle more than me but really.. I really just want this feeling to go away. 

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Today,

I have officially been “candy-free” for a whole month.

I can’t say that I have given up sweets all together but I haven’t had one single candy bar or fruit gummy. I even turned down free Godiva Chocolate

I should be glad, I am having some major M&M withdrawals.

I’m lame but.. I really do miss me some candy though :(

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Eight years ago, my loving friend Robert Jackson III, rested to a better place & showed me to cherish every person I come across in my life. Miss & love you Candy Man

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I just realized I graduate in 27 days and my whole family is gone for vacation. 

Well..

Story Of My Life. 

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Check It Out

My lovely friend Mary is starting a new blog dedicated to artists who are unknown revealing their work of art.

It would really be great if you could help her out start this off by following her or at least checking the amazing talent and the work effort they put in their art :)

http://unveiltheartist.tumblr.com

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Class Assignments

Just like my previous post a few days ago, I am still working on trying to have at least 50 people answer this survey for my Journalism assignment. It would be a big help not only to me but also a big contribution for my group. It’s only 10 simple questions. So please if you can, it would really really help!

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/NKCQSJJ

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Late Night Thoughts

I just want to feel and be happy again. 

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I honestly just want to give up. Give up everything I have. Making an effort with no reward is starting to get the best of me. Gifts are not everything but it isn’t easy not receiving any acknowledgment either. It just hurts so much to where I just want to cry. I wish it was easier but as time goes on, it really starts to sink in and hit me. As much as I try to make the best and keep my head high, deep inside it really just breaks me. Sorry I’m not the greatest. Sorry I make mistakes. Sorry if my “effort” isn’t enough for you. I really had good intentions and now I just lost all hope. I wish you would just take the time to understand. 

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On The Lookout

Over these last few years, I’ve started to become more and more into makeup than I thought I would ever did in my life. 

I’m not so crazy about eyeshadows but I do have a slight liking for blushes and lip products will always be a special thing in my heart. I am also always looking for a good foundation, powder mascara, and eyeliner just because I have sensitive skin and my eyes are always watery lol. 

Since I have I have sensitive/dry skin, it’s also hard for me to find a face wash and moisturizer that won’t try to break me out. I inherited “dark undereye circles” as well so if I don’t have any makeup, I pretty much look dead.. LOL

Anyways getting to the point, I am writing a special post since I am currently on a search for new foundation, powder, mascara and other skin products to try. As much as I love all the stuff I am currently using, I am a weirdo and I like to change it up a bit since I do get tired seeing things for a while and I don’t want my skin to get used to it.

Plus, since summer is rolling around, even though I have dry skin, in the summer my skin gets somewhat normal so I do need something for the special weather. 

I am always curious to what type of makeup people use, what skin products people use in their face, since I know everyone is different and it always amazes me to what certain things people use. 

Plus, I haven’t been updated with YouTube soo.. it would be nice to hear what “in” and “new”

So if you can, I would love to hear what types of makeup or skin products YOU love and would suggest for me to try. I always like trying new things and would really like to hear all the different products out there. 

Questions and answers I would like to hear for example would be like; What type of mascara? What type of foundation? What type of powder? Anyone?